Sunny Sweeney Debuts Gut Wrenching ‘Bottle By My Bed’ Video

This week Sunny Sweeney released the new music video for her gut wrenching new single, “Bottle by My Bed.” The song is off her new album, Trophy.

In her interview with PEOPLE Sweeney shown the light on her story with infertility, and miscarriage. She spoke honestly and openly about the struggles that she, her husband, and countless of people go through every day.

I think everyone assumes that they will automatically achieve pregnancy as soon as they start trying. But after a couple of years had passed and nothing was happening, we realized it was going to be more of a struggle than we had anticipated. So, after a huge hiccup in our plans, we decided to go explore infertility treatments.

We spent so much money on what seemed like months and months of no return: shots, creams, hormones, medications and finally [in vitro fertilization], which was brutal on both my body and my emotions. We had a total of 12 perfect embryos when it was all said and done. We were so sure it was going to work this time. Then not a single embryo made it to the implantation stage. My heart was absolutely broken. We had “the talk.” It was putting too much stress on us. We were done trying.

A couple of months later, I miraculously ended up pregnant, naturally. We were stunned. We had gotten a few months into it, and we got to see the heartbeat. This completely restored my outlook on the parent/child connection immediately. Everything was sailing along smoothly. I embraced morning sickness. It amused me that things smelled gross. My body was changing, and I couldn’t “hide it” much longer. I thought, “This is it — we are actually having a baby!”

Then I went in for my regular checkup, and the heartbeat was gone. Gone. No explanation. Nothing.